Last preparation

Tomorrow comp dy, at sunway college..
Study, got study but not much.....
Cant go in my brain...
But i will still do my best...
Competive... Foon yew-four team
Convent, ssi - they out their best student..
Is it really tt pro like others saying... Haiz..
I will do my best too..
Hope is a good result pa.
Gambateh....
And get well soon for skl...
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You know ma, everytime i receive ur message, i am so nervous..
I so wish to get ur ans...I hope when i open my message u tell me ur ans..
But u didnt.
I told u i will wait.. I know tis is everyone said.. But i said from my true heart.
I know before tis, i had met so many play play wan.. But i can tell u i am not..
I know i say all tis is useless. Without prove..
But i will prove to u.. Time can prove everything..
I will wait no matter how long..Wait u with my true heart..
I can let u test as u like cause i am true to u...
And tomorrow comp, i will do watever my best for u.. I will listen to u also..
I will do my best only but not force myself. Hope tt i really can win tt for u...

For u

I said out, i tell u wat i feel..
I finally tell out..
U had ask me two times, u like me ah..
But i din answer...
Is really really bcoz i scare... I scare fail..
I scare i tell out u not accept, i will lose a friend, a chatting partner...
I rather like now, chatting everyday..
But i cant keep it somemore... So i tell out...
U ask me not to worry u... But i very worry..
Worry u not happy, worry u sick... Is becoz i like u..
I know we only meet tt few time, but i comfirm my feel toward u..
I will keep tink bout u....
Last time, when i know tt a guy wooing u for around one year, i know i din stand a great chance..
But i told myself, no matter wat ur decision, i will try my best also.... Cause i don wan to regret..
Actually i din intend to tell u so early, cause i scare...
TT few day, i really really can feel tt somethin happen on u, but u don wan tell.
But frankly, i know wat happen... Just today i know..
I don know why u don wan tell me, but nvm, since u don wan tell then i din ask again..
But why i am the last wan who know..
Even yesterday also.. i am the last.. Jealous..Don know is it..
I am not cheng xu er ru, is coz i don wan to keep it again...
U say don treat u so good, but i still will, cause i like u..
Last time u keep saying me and nat or grace.. is all wrong plz... the person is u...not other.. is u, only u....
We know each other in a very weird way...
Is it call fate...
I don know, i know i did nothin for u, other than chat with u, and tt flanil..
Unlike tt accident bcoz of u..
But i tink tt my true heart can win everything.
My heart is really jumping now, i scare a scary ans..
No matter the result is wat, u accept me or reject..
But i wont give up...
I will still wait...
I really really like u.....

Moody Monday

I found tt mostly monday is my moody day..
Don know why, for no reason.
Don know, mayb there is a reason but don know how to say..
Quite confuse....
Mayb of tt thing meh..
I don wan to say here.
I don know is it bcoz of tt...
Should i straight step out...
But i scare...
I scare fail..
I kena ask tt..... two time..
Two times le.. How how how....
Why i so coward ahhh...
Cant just ans meh...
Haiz, wat to do????
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Acc, how..die die die..
still din even touch...
no xin to touch le..
Sorry , i tink i will let u all disappoint tis time...
Sorry...

Saturday, study day..

Today go school, every period also super sian lo... Haiz..
Lucky teacher all give light work, if not i sure no mood wan...
Then went cs... Thanks pang ye for treating us mcd..
Sorry someone, ask u don eat mcd but i go eat... But no choice, people treat.. I wont eat again..
Then watch transformers.. Waaaaaaaaaaa. The movie ok ok la.
Not really really tt nice la..Awesome but not superb..
I shock tt so damn many people go watch..
My friend told me cs, tebrau city, leisure mall all full liao..
Lucky we still can buy taoo.
But is really really full lo.. Even the most front is fully seated lo..
then the people queeing for the ticket was non stop long..
Just now go leisure mall..wow..line is so damn long lo..
Happy birthday to yong shun..
Act got present, but someone haven buy, so. owe it first ye...
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Tis few day will be busy too.. Tomorrow goin out with the duck...
monday still need to study another 300 pages of tt acc book..
Wednesday comp dy.. Haiz.. sure lose la..cause foon yew participating..
They start learn acc in english..How to fight.. Stupid ppd..use stupid idiot malay for wat...
Useless at all..
Thanks for everyone tt gambateh for me..
I will try all my best win a prize for "you"..
And all..
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Just now i found out somethin tt let me like more comfirm ur feel...
Should i step out now....
BUt sometime i felt like not tt feel..
Haiz, i am confuse now...

My second comp

Today, haiz..
Cant show my talent liao...
Stupid ahmad tell for wat, if not i sure will sai u...Haha..
Now, seem very serious dy.. Hope our skul really nothin lo..
Tomorrow, holiday. Din go for open day...
Saturday still need to study.,Sian..
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My acc second goin to reach..
Tis time not daerah liao, is negeri wan..
Organize by sunway college..
And somemore is in english.
I know nothin bout tt, cause all i study is in malay..
So.. i tink no hope to win also..
But i will still work hard..

tis is the book i need to read finish in two day..saturday need to exchange another book.
300 plus pages man..die, tis time die liao.. wow..
Some more is two book le. 600 pages altogether...
But no choice, must read also...
If win, got money le..
Got cert also.. The cert is so important for me, lucky i am ok ok in acc, so being choose for tis comp. If not, no cert also..
I tink tis time will meet tt chong ann bee also.. But ho, now convent mostly kena qurantine le, so..will they take part also.. Anyway, hope to see you, ben say u very geng le.. I wan to see.
Gambateh for sdj.
Gambateh......

Crazy

Today, pang kena aluba again..
So sorry pang... Today lagi worst..
Thanks miss tay for ur cooperation. Thanks for ur support..go out early so tt we can aluba..
Pang is so cham lo..
The pants kena open.. Even inside wan.. See the buttock also..
Ur .... sure oo ceh wan lo..
I tink is a unforgetable 17 bdae... haha....
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H1N1... New cases liao.. Our skul had been suspected liao. Cause got one form 4 student kena..
But don know is who le.. So scary and worry lo... I don wan people beside me to leave me...
Especially u. I din even do somethin tt i wan to do..
Touch wood, say those stupid thing for wat.... Coi coi coi....
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Today lend someone my phone but kena played..
I hate it... Cb...
Really hate tt lo..
Sorry is too late...

Gambateh my frenz, don choose to giv up.
U can do it wan..
Tis is also wat u tell me lehh..
Gambateh....

23JUN

Happy birthday my frenz..

We know each other for 7 years dy.. Same class for seven years...

Hope our freindship can continue for another 70 years and more.

Sorry for aluba-ing u today...

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Wish a advance happy bdae to yong shun also...

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Hey, tell me wat happen. Don keep it... Don make me worry ...

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Today, nothin special also la..

Go to school lansung no study..

First three period pj, then phy, talking back..

Then mahai, lagi wont study, then go ceramah and go back...

Frankly, the ceramah not so use also. Nothin they really tell us also..

So, conclusion is,,waste time...

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To "i hate uu"

Friend, don know today i got too over or not le..

But all i only just joking la, but i feel like i am over..

Sorry ye.....

I still will "hate" u..

Life

Is so hard..
Tis few days, people are in emo state..
Some are so busy until cant tink tt he/she is happy or not.
Some struggle with those prob, stress and all tt..
Some in normal state, past their days as usual...
Some are so boring like shit..
I also don know i am in which wan...
Tis two days, i found my target, my new target, my only target...
I started to tink bout her.
Tinking bout the first sight, the thing tt we chat..
Tinking bout wat i can do..
I found my target... I am sure i will strike for it..
Don know the result is good or bad but i will try...
Same for others, some tt had get their target must cherish them like ur life..
No matter how much u do for them, it is worth...
I can only worry bout them but not they worry bout u.. Tis is wat they mean by happiness...
Stay happy is wat we must do.
Eventhough life is so miserable, but others will go with u ..
Ur frenz, ur family, ur beloved are always there to support u for a longer run...
GamBaTeh EVERYBody..
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Tomorrow, my busiest week start...
School start to finish at 2.40..
Wat a stupid, suck arrangement by those idiot...
No choice, must accept it...
After skul, still need to rush for tuition at 4.
I tink is so damn super tired for me..
Just now i am tinking do i need to take sej tuition..
I still don know wat to do..
I wan to take, but i am so tired and lazy too..
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Guys, do u hav any idea on a gift(make by urself/DIY/handicraft) for gal..
Thanksssssss.

Lonely & boring saturday

Today, nothin to do for the whole day.
Facing the comp for whole day..
Watch drama, msn lo..
Nothin special, i waste one day again.
Just now i heard one joke from nat. Is bout grace..
They went to mamak stall and someone order maggi soup..
Then grace say she wan to drink the soup.
Bcoz of the dark sky, the soup look black.
Then grace ask why the soup is black.
Then someone ans, bcoz indian is black. And when the indian cooking the soup, his sweat drop into the soup then the soup become black..
Most funny is grace actually believe tt.. Funny lo. grace..
Not i wan to laugh. is really so damn funny...
Grace, u are really so cute and dan chun lo.
I very envy will hav such cute cousin like u...
And i forget to say yesterday.. Ur voice is so nice. Is so different from the others.
Mayb u are singaporean or wat la, really quite special.. Not only i say,, many of them agree wat i say...
U really bring lot of joy for us tt few outing..
See,, every little action, little moment can actually make someone happy or mayb make someone sad or emo...
Someone tt is important to someone will be sad when the person become emo..
So, please always be happy to make people around u happy.. don let them worry ma.
The feeling of worrying bout someone is so bad.. Your unhappy will make someone worry and cant concentrate on somethin.. Do u willing to make ur beloved unhappy. sure no ma..
So, don be so emo dy...
All those is a journey for everyone.. No one can skip tt wan.. Is just see how u goin to handle it..
Tis is just the beggining for u k... There are still more waiting for u... U must pass now and wait for the comin wan... Gambateh.. I can do it and i sure u can also...
Tomorrow will also be a bored day...
Haiz..

Red box

Today, after skul go red box lo.
Then not so high lo... All like sian sian like tt..
I also diam diam.
Yl, js, jw, nat super diam lo.
Only know sokk sokk sokk..
Haha, i first time sing infront gal le...
Quite shy lo.. Sorry for ur all de ears. I sing so .... Thx for tahan..
Although play not so high, BUT i damn happy today...
I comfirmed my feel today..
I cant say here la, and u all don ask also.... I will tell when the time reach . But i comfirm tt dy...
After sing, we go cs..
Then still sesat lo, don know where to go.
Then we go tang cao..
Sit down dy, the menu also giv us liao.. Then suddenly, we go other place..
Waliu, first time i like tt le. Sit down dy then din eat...
Then go food court. Don know who silly idea lo.
We go there play dare or true..
Haizzz.
Grace kena first... Then later she kena again... Kena dare liao... So cute lo. Thanks le, auntie..
Then nat kena also.. Dare... The uncle really finding u just now le.. haha...
Then skl liao. I forget kena how many time liao la. Dare.. The foon yew girl also don know wat u saying lo..
Then jun wen kena true... Really no ma, jun wen.. Comfirmm.
Js liao.. True... good boy ah. din tink tt b4. Act i still got one q's... ur cu wen out liao ma.. tell le.. i very curious lo.
Me.. True... Haha, my ans is very very clear liao ah. So, please don mention tt again.. Tis topic is stop. Please ah..
Haha, someone there, don angry ahh. Just continue ur curiosity pa. Just blame why u din go lo.
AND..i haven scold u lo... walao.. u keep tt card and go run... Then lastly i only found tt the card is with u. Then i from tt from door run till back door and take from u. U reallyy ho.. Cee kiat wan lo. I run there and back le, coz they waitin me. I first time run till like tt lo. All bcoz of u. I don care lo. u MUST explain tt thing to all of them... If not, i hate u.
Then we from cs go play bkb at kerry there...
Nothin special la..
Sorry someone, become the food for moisquitoes lo...Is ok la, i know u will forgiv us.
Tt is for today de activity lo.
To grace- i din wrote so much in the card..Sorry..Really happy go out with u. Have a lot of fun also.. U really cute. So special lo. I will always remember every moment.. And urs phrase "is ok , i wll forgiv u" And, ini blh am am.. And. ur hi hi.. Time past very fast.. Next time come then we go out again lo. Good luck for ur study also.. Gambateh... Must miss us le.haha...
Gambateh everybody....

ThANKs someone^^^

I really nothin for the kedudukan liao la..
Really really really..
Don worry..
Thanks for those words.
1- dont,for one repulse,forgo the purpose tt u resolved effort.
2- although ur name is not among those on the admission list, there is still a path to success under ur feet.
3- as long as u advanced bravely, u r sure to have a bright future.
4- the star of hope will brighten ur gloomy eyes after the failure in examination, and urge u to start on a new journey.
5- life is full of troubles. setback and failures are often the roadstones of success, may u not be downhearted but cheer up and try again.
6- on the battlefield a single man can sometimes defeat a thousand men, but only when he defeat himself will he be the greatest victor.
7- struggles are the school for mastering special skills; setbacks are the bridge leading to success.
8- chiefly the mould of man's fortune is in his own hands.
9- it should be believed tt everyone governs his own life.
10- u r the shaper of ur own destiny.
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Is meaningful lo.
thanks.

18.06.09

Missy Yeo.

She laugh till very funny le, is so cute.

Her bdae is on 17.06.09..
She teach me add math last year...

A good teacher lo. Is so sporting lo..

We bought a cake for her..(chocolate banana from secret recipe) rm70 le

Then ho, all people is so pu yao lian lo.. All come eat oo.

Din pay also come..

Anyway, we take from them.. Lucky lo, if not three people pay for tt 70..

Happy birthday, teacher..

Hope u always as pretty like now..

Thanks for ur teaching and fetching....

You are so cute lo...

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Today, teacher say tt pjk is counted in our kedudukan.

I straight away sian liao lo. Cause i din go take pj paper...

She say is the computer de system.

Stupid whey, such a stupid sub teach by an idiot(rosli), count for wat..

Actually i got chance to get the first, the least also second..

But now, straight drop to 19 and lower...

Really ceekiat lo..

Haizzz. No choice lo. Nvm la.. Not important also the place..

But i did not regret din go for the pj paper at all.

The gred is more important...

Today, new timetable out.

Haha, wed and thurs.. Last period sivik.. See. they are givin chance for me to go backk.
Thanks le. Haha..

Tomorrow goin red box with grace,natalie,skl,yl,js,jw le.

Can play liao. Must play madly lo. Last time dy.. Too bad someone cant go...

Hope is a nice day.

I decided not to work liao.. Nvm la, no money then save save save lo...

Concentrate on study better...

Tomorrow will be better..

Gambateh....

Fcuk

Suck, totally suck.
Next week on, study till 2.40.
Suck lo..
Stupid teacher, stupis skul, stupid ppb, stupid government, stupid malaysia.
Now until 2.15 also like wan die liao. Add some more.
Sokkkkkkkkkkkk tao..
Really really damn sokk lo. I really don know how to carry on lo...
After skul, then need to rush to tuition some day..
Haiz, sian le..
Also no time to rest..
Really stupid le, tis will only cause student to hate to come skul lo.
Sure i will ponteng wan lo. See wat sub damn stupid then ponteng.
If not, really die oo.
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Today chemistry, teacher say she mark wrong, then my marks become 70..
Yeahhh, another A liao.
But the stupid idiot physics, my first b..
Haizzzz. Really hate it loo.
Anyway, no choice, i will accept it.
Gambateh next time lo, will be better.
Now i fan is should i go to work..
I scare my study will become worse.. I still haven decide le....
Tis fri, goin to red box the last time with grace...
Sure play madly. Hahahaha...
Just finish the stupid add math project... So ma fan lo.
Other skul can type we cant. Stupid betul lo.
Anyway, finish dy..
(Haha, today i din put ur pic here.. Next time la..)
Jia you pa...

My "beloved" teacher

Haha, tis my lovely teacher, mahari.

We call her many name lo.. Got mahai, ma ai, matahari.

Very bad rite..

BUT if u let her teach, i can comfirm u tink like me..

Not only me tink like tt, whole cls, whole form even form 3.

Haiz, be a teacher like her really hopeless..

She is so ridiculous, sombong, tak tahu lakon tahu, salah cakap betul.

I seldom do her work wan lo.. Is so sien. She always giv those useless work.

The most sokkkkk is she din mark it.

And exam, she simply mark lo.. Giv till so high mark until we thought we very geng..

Then still always sai us..

Always say we kurang kasih sayang, also don know is she or us lo.

How u wan us to respect u...

Tis exam,

she giv me so high mark for karangan le.. 89.. sokkkk.

Nvm, i will giv rohaini to mark..

At least i can know where my standard...

Today... her class.

I sitting behind, she teaching infront..

Then my gang with me at behind..

Then she start to sai us liao..

Mahai: Hui siang, jgn cakap cina boleh tak.

Hui siang (hs): oo..

He sure oo wan la, he not dare to say back also.

Then i start dy..( with a light sound la)

Ler: Oo, tak blh cina, then english lo.. U tak mau cina, kita tak mau malay, then we speak international language la, english..

Mahai: Ler, u mahu cakap, cakap terang terang, jangan cakap di belakang..

Ler: OO,ok.. I cakap, kita cakap english, kerana kita tak suka bm, blh tak..

Mahai: Shut up..

Ler: waaaaaaaaaa, english whorrrrr.

Mahai: U tak mau bm, u keluar. jgn kat kelas saya.. Ini bukan kelas kamu, ini kelas cikgu..

Ler: apa kelas cikgu ooooo. Ini kelas sdj la..

Rui yong: ok liao la, don talk liao..

Ler: okok, i din talk liao.

Then mahai don know say wat liao la, i don care also... I tink my class not much people can like me, mayb pang pa..

Got so much more interesting and exciting moment in tis three years,

Haiz.. i am so unlucky, kena mahai for three years...

Nvm la, is fate also.. I really don know she like tt lo... Haiz..

Nvm , few more month only...

I tink i really bad lo, but no choice , cant control myself.

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Today get chemi and phy back. Haizzzzz.

67 and 60.

My first two b..

Math 93. ok dy la. But i can get higher, not bcoz of careless, then i sure can win..Nvm, next time wont careless dy.

All paper back dy. Tis exam, consider moderate la..

All a 2 b..

Don know my first place will run to him or not le..

Nvm, next time will be better,,

I sure will work hard wan.

Gambateh....

Continued

Yesternite too late dy, now continue..
There are some pic of yesterday...

haha, is me
Gila num 1
crazy till cry..
haha, don blame me, wan blame then blame will..
someone is short, don embarass la crazy num 2, really no need say is ur cousin, people also know
sot sot wan
jun wen & grace(tis two more normal)

really a happy last day of tis holiday..

Happy to know tis few crazy frenz..

hope got next time..

gambateh.

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today i get few result dy..

bm-79 ( haiz, one more marks le)

add math-73 ( act is a1 but kena minus mark then a2, HAIZ)

sej-80 ( cant imagine can get a1, highest le, shuang)

Chemi-67 ( paper haven get, teacher just tell the mark, whole skul only one get a1 le, i not too bad liao)

moral-99 ( act is 94 but teacher promise to giv bonus mark, i am the highest in skul le, hehe)

sivik-68 ( damn stupid sub)

tomorrow got phy and math liao, hope not bad..

First day of skul, so damn sleepy, haiz.. don know which stupid go giv somethin stupid and cause me sleepy, nvm la.. iis ok, i forgiv u..

Then go tuition, my eye wan close dy lo...

Tomorrow also a busy day also...

Gambateh everybody...

Happy but not crazy

Today, early in the morning go wl church...
Then later go cs watch blood.. Nice, quite a disgusting movie..
Nat(will cousin).. don know y ask me sit beside her.. Waliu.. I never seen a gal like her..
She so scare sia, until shout.. really damn funny lo.
Cute lo,, the way she talk, laugh.. really like crazy.. So bising, non stop.. Unlike another two sit beside me,, I really cant imagine.. No words come out from their mouth wan lo. Why ah, mayb they xi kuan liao....
Damn stupid thing we did. To prove tt ... got cian shou with ... we even hold hand and let them see. Then only they cian sou.. First time is i and will. On the escalator, Infront of us is an auntie and her son. Then will and i hold hand then suddenly hit tao the auntie buttock.. Nearly la..
Then another time is, skl and i.. Hold hand infront of so many people lo. So embarassing lo. Nvm la, xi kuan liao.. Haizzz.
Then later go old town, i shouldnt say go there la. Stupid will and skl say wan take pic me and nat.. Walao,, make me face red oo. But frankly, really red ah???
Lucky they cant get a good pic.. haha...
I really really enjoy the whole day.. I really happy also
Thanks everybody.. U all know me emo then help me find mood. Thanks, i wont forget tt..
Go out with u all, really like crazy people... Non stop laughing..
I wont forget..
*is ok, i forgive u* * saya aku rasa* *ini boleh am am* many many more la..
Every moment is always in my heart.. The laughing sound, the shouting sound..
Thankssssss............

Crazy

Just now, wl ask me go ... bdae party.
Now i know how a crazy woman like. But mayb tt only called a happy life.
I really enjoy..
And i really nothing now. No no mood or wat wat la.
Not coz of tt party ah..
Just tink out dy, i wont care wat he wrote la, coz i know i hav frenz tt more understanding like u.
Just now suddenly js send me..2moro u free ma. wan go sing ma.
Cheh, i thought u wan treat me.. Nvm la.. I will go, coz last day of holidays. Add math project, don care la.. Let it die..
Gambatehhh...

A new day, A fresh day

I wont emo liao la..
Sorry lo.. I will happy wan..
*Promise u also.. Don haiz haiz ho.. If not i haiz haiz also...
But ho..
We altogether only lose tebrau 5 marks. Is masak dai sai. is me dai sai..
If the boat giv to jun yin them, i tink they can get num 2 lo. They lose to st john 3 marks only.. Haiz...
Then mayb the 180 wont run away...
Kawad team also lose to them 2 marks only. Not consider tt bad.. But quite ke si lo. 2 marks only. Nvm la, past tense liao..
Remember 30 rounds..I will also run, coz i more worse than the worst..
telematch win them 9 marks, shuai.
I am the one who say wan tt 180 wan tt 180 wan tt 180, but lastly is me who go ruin tt..Haiz... Anyway... i wont sad dy. Blame myself also no use dy. cant change. Can only accept the reality..
I know some will blame me, don worry, i wont care wat they say la...
I tink after tis post, there are no pb in my blog.. My road stopped. Hope they can do better than us. I tink sure can la.. Gambateh....
i wont forget every moments with u all...
Sorry...

My end point

HAiz.. Hopeless.
I totally moodless when the prize givin. I know i will lose to pb and mayb wont get any prize.
Ya, is true.. No prize. But I lose to my own ahli.
I lose 7 marks to them.
I really cant imagine lo. i Got tink b4 mayb i lose to them.. But .... Haiz
We use the most money, we use the nicest hiasan(the boat), i put tt much effort, even my slp time, tink, train.. Haizz. But i never tink bout the taste, i just tink bout the hiasan..
Hate myself..
Our marks altogether only lose tebrau 5 marks le. 5 marks le. If i din get tt low marks, sure the 180 is us.
My fault.. Thought very geng but is the most lan.
Do tis, tis bad, do tt, tt bad.. Kawad also... Haiz.
I really such a failure. Never ever can good in somethin.. Tis fail tt fail. Nevr success in Anythin and everything..
Sorry.. Sorry.. Haizzz
Just now go big eat... Eat sate, hao jian, wonton mee and durian... Damn super full. I wan to ganti all my lose tis holidays... AAAAAAAAAAA...
My pb road end with tis result. Haizzzz...
SORRY...

Forgot...

I wan to thanks and say sorry to my mum..
Just now i bought all my masak stuff back.
Then my mum wash it for me.. Haiz, suddenly her hand and the knife jie he.
Very deep le. The blood non stop comin out. Haiz.
Thanks mum for helping me wash it.
Sorry, i should wash it myself... And the baddest is, i don know wat to do.. I just take a plaster for her.. I am such a failure.. Sorry...

Second day of HOT camp

Well. Same as yesterday..Play vey high..
Today wake up late. then go there with sleepy face. But when game time, haha..
Today learn shuang ren wu liao. Good la. Tomorrow can dance.
BUt haizzz..... My wish cant fulfil. Haizzz...
Today, they perform goodly in telematch. Congratulation for ur victory.
Now, if tebrau din win any prize for telematch, we may be tie. But the chance is so rare. Coz i tink masak wont be winning any prize. Haiz.. Lets hope for miracle pa.
Yesterday forget another masak team liao..Know u all being force to participate tis comp. Although i din see ur dishes, but i tink not bad la. Someone told me not bad. Mayb u all better than us somemore lo. We really too bad liao. Haizzz.
Tomorrow last day liao. Our effort will come with a result. Hope not so bad. But to me dy enough cause of the memory.. I tink other ajkt wont hav tt lo. Haha...
After 2moro i am not ajkt liao. Should be ex senior liao. My pb journey goin to stop 2moro. Also don know they will remember me or not. I so kuai lan...But nvm la, i remember them can liao...
So fast.. Holidays goin to finish. Really a tiring holidays. The most tiring holidays in my life.
But i enjoy also la. After tt, i tink i will be goin back to ooh la la to work. Pok kai liao lo. See first only la. I scare my study will become worse.. If i tink i can balance it, then i go earn money..
Gambateh pa...

To MY Kawad Team

Is mine k.
Is my sweat, my time, my heart, my tear & my soul.
I know u all did best today.
But mostly cant win. But no choice lo. Blame other why so geng lo.
To ys- haiz.. talk so much, leg will never change.
To cs- u tink u are the only one who suffer meh. Although i no need worry at all bout ur kawad, but u cant put heart in it.
To hl- although talk also much but ok la. at least cooperate.
To js- haiz, haiz, haiz. although got little dai sai just now, but i know u don wan la. nvm lo. take as experience. Disappointment is no more on u during the holidays. Is true. I know u wan to win, but others lo. Jia you la. mayb miracle will come.
To jw- good la, same like hl, But prob still many. Actually, frankly. ur kawad really very very not nice. Anyway, can change, but i tink no chance dy la.
To wl- Oh, my lovely, cute frenz. Love u the most. Really need to thanks u. No other words, only thankx. I also don know how to express my thankness, but i will always put it in my heart. Thank you much and much.
To yl- My cute bro ah, Haiz.. U are the one giv me most prob le. I know u also don wan, but ur dad. Nvm la. i always forgiv u wan. Frankly, u r the nicest when kawad. Really very nice ur kawad. But today u did many wrong oo. Nvm la. Pass tense liao.
B4 tis, i dy know, if u all lose, i will surely kena blame, coz of the hentak. i tink u all know pa. Is true. Just now kena liao. Not directly, but i know k. Haiz... Nvm la, i never regret also. Cause i know if did tt will only increase mistake...
Frankly, some of u all know y i still stay till today in pb. Is really true lo. If not u 7, i tink i now wont be writing tis post. Disappoint sure got a little wan la. If say no sure bluff. Put so much effort le. But cant see the champion. Anyway, ok dy la.
Although i always scold u all when trainin, tt r all for u all good ma.
If u all really serious every trainin and no fei ji lao, champion is a sure.
Useless dy talk tis. Just relax next two days.
Cherish tis two days plz. Is my last two days with u all liao le in pb la.
Play with me, joke with me, dance with me, run with me, sweat with me.
LASTLY, i really really never regret stay in pb coz of tis... Is a right decision last time although the stress is so so much. Thanks .... help me de stress oo.
I wan to treat u all but i really no money at all now. So too bad lo. SRy.
Next time la, when i work.
----THANKS EVERYBODY----

First day of HOT camp

Really a long day. Yesternite, slp at 4 am wake up at 5.30.
Damn shuang le. Other slp like pig but me and ben do thin like shit.
Today comp. Kawad and masak.
Haiz, one word.. LOSE.
Kawad i don know la, i din watch. But other say lose lo.
Masak. Shit. Lose dy lo. Perform bad today.
Stupid judge say my food not creative oo. I dy tink of the most creative dish le.
Then i find dry ice for more then one month lastly yi xiang found tt.
BUT, still din use wisely. The effect not so good lo. So i tink cant get mark from there.
My rice, tasteless they say. Haiz. Soup, very normal. Haiz. Hopeless dy la.
Lets say bye bye for the 180 pa. Mostly wont get unless there are any miracle.
Anyway, gambateh for telematch tomorrow. Hope they perform good lo.
but although i damn sleepy, but when dance and game i so energetic lo. now damn sleepy again.
I really don know y somebody is so noob hai. Dance only ma, so scare for wat. Go back oo. suck. Noob. Always say say say but not dare at all. Haiz..
Two days to go.
Gambateh....
Haizzzzzz

Tomorrow

Will be a super busy day.
Go out in the morning till nite. Then cant slp early. need to prepare many thing for masak. Then super damn early must wake up mayb 4 am. Need to prepare also.
The next day, comp start. wow. Wat will it be oo.
Tomorrow they train from morning till nite. I will be very very strict lo. If not, how can win tebrau pb. Lucky tt most of the prob settle. So happy lo. No prob too fan for now.
Gambateh scout for the campfire.
Gambateh us also for the comp.
Gambateh seven of u for the sucker trainin tomorrow. oop should be six only. Another wan still enjoy at penang, but i know he doesnt wan like tt also.
Gambateh for me for the masak.
Gambateh for telematch team.
Gambateh for pc team also.
Gambateh for another kawad team tt cant win. Haha, is true k.
Gambateh for other school also. I not selfish wan k.
Gambateh for our ahli who goin to lost voice.
Gambateh everybody for tt 180cm.
Gambateh for me, left 4 days only.
GAMBATEH

Haiz

Today, masak trainin.
Okok lo. At least much much better than last time.
Mostly acceptable. just need to plan carefully next time. Hope can win la.
People when angry, frustated really will do many wrong thing.
I feel tt again today.
Just now, some prob out again. Then i go scold him lo.
Mayb i scold wan some is true some is not true la. I know he don wish tt also, but.....Haiz.
I know u wont see tis, but i still need to say sorry again. i just too fan and frus. Sorry.
Bcoz of tis i lose rm 15 le.
Shit, thought can use tt for two more days, but now....
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Yeah, i can buy the bag tomorrow liao. Happy whey.
I so damn wish to buy last time, but too many people use dy. Now come out new design, sure buy lo.
Just 5 more days to go... Gambateh
5 more days, i no need to be so frus and fan liao. " sorry " also can be saved.
To someone - u can sav ur money liao. Imposible for u all to win.
Anyway, gambateh

Lets fight

Three more days, a big war start between few school.
Kawad, masak, telematch & pc.
ys,jw,js,cs,hl,wl,yl - kawad.
me,ben,jc,jy,jh,ss - masak.
hl,wb,wp,wl,jh,jy - telematch
ben, wl,wh - pc
Gambateh everybody, fight for tt 180..
To someone- my sixth sense tell me u need to treat me. haha.
Hope there are no more prob come out, please!!!
I really don know how to handle liao.
After 12.06.09- i am so free. Shuang, never ever fan for those prob anymore.
Congratulation for those winner today. Gambateh and win more prizes.
Jia you everybody......

Let it go

I really full with anger just now. Stupid fellow. cannot come din inform me but inform he then he din tell me. He don know tt last few days sure need to train but still. He don know tt he one person is equal to 7 meh. He cant how others train. Haizz
People in anger really will make decision tt mayb regret later. I feel tt today.
Why let go is so hard. Mayb like u say, too much pressure make me horrible. But i am so pu se de to giv up. Say giv up when anger just now. Is true will relax a bit. I felt qing song when i let go just now. BUT then, just now i watch their video. My mind, my heart change back and willing to accept the pressure again. Mayb don wan my effort to dump into the sea. I tink nobody wan also. I even tink bout all the prob they will during the comp and wat to do. goin to tell them.
Why is so hard to let go ah???
Why i need to suffer for those just bcoz of tt comp?
Why i wan to put such much effort in it? I very sa & stupid le...
But i cant put down. Suckk. is so hard lo.
Hate it, hate tt stupid comp. Hate tt stupid 180. Lagi hate tt irresponsible person.
Haiz... People in anger will make regretful decision. I learn from it.
Suckkk

Pain sia

Today after trainin, go break the glass again.
Then later go play bkb. Suck, my leg qi pao. Damn pain whey.
First time so pain lo. Walk yi kuai yi kuai, haiz.
People saw me walk sure tink why so strange wan.
Haiz, like my ku ji, the trainin. people is lesser and lesser. Haiz, don know wat to say.
Anyway, mon will be better. Must train tao they all kao kao lat.
Hope don let ex-senior disappoint again. Must be strict lo.
Hey, please cooperate la. I know some of u don wan win, but since participate dy, then pia a bit la. Get second also ok liao ma. Last year dy le.
Who don wan to take pic with tt 180cm oo. Please la!!!
Gambateh.
Tomorrow will be better.
And gambateh for those who hav comp tomorrow. Good luck.
And who can giv me some idea.. Wat song is suitable to say "nice to meet u". Better mandarin song....Tq first.. Very important for my happiness^^

Boring day

Nothing to do today.
Training cancel, went back home.
Drama lo haiz.
Being force to take a nap....
Still very tired lo.
i learn new thing today,
When u spend ur live worrying about other people feel, u lose the track of how u feel....
Sian
Trip cancel, don know is happy or sad.
Nvm la, can rest

Future or Tomorrow

I tink future come first.
Wat is future? To me, even the next min, next hour is consider as future.
Tomorrow is also catogories as future, But future cannot catogories in tomorrow.
Everybody has their own opinion in any time.
Mayb tis moment u will tink tt 2moro come first, next moment u tink future first or mayb both is same. So there is no actual ans.....
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Haiz, i really damn tired and sleepy, But when i reach home, i saw tis comp then don feel sleepy liao.Yesterday slp around 4 hours only, haiz. Mayb tired people will feel moodless. I don feel any mood to train masak 2moro. Postpone pa. Now, my confidence is dropping. Haiz, why..
Kawad team, i can feel hope is arising slowly. Mayb don hope more, num 2 lo. Hope can la. But, the next few days. the people trainin is lesser and lesser lo. 2moro also 5 only, haiz...

Yeah, thurs go for holiday, genting again.... Go relax a bit.....