Let it go

I really full with anger just now. Stupid fellow. cannot come din inform me but inform he then he din tell me. He don know tt last few days sure need to train but still. He don know tt he one person is equal to 7 meh. He cant how others train. Haizz
People in anger really will make decision tt mayb regret later. I feel tt today.
Why let go is so hard. Mayb like u say, too much pressure make me horrible. But i am so pu se de to giv up. Say giv up when anger just now. Is true will relax a bit. I felt qing song when i let go just now. BUT then, just now i watch their video. My mind, my heart change back and willing to accept the pressure again. Mayb don wan my effort to dump into the sea. I tink nobody wan also. I even tink bout all the prob they will during the comp and wat to do. goin to tell them.
Why is so hard to let go ah???
Why i need to suffer for those just bcoz of tt comp?
Why i wan to put such much effort in it? I very sa & stupid le...
But i cant put down. Suckk. is so hard lo.
Hate it, hate tt stupid comp. Hate tt stupid 180. Lagi hate tt irresponsible person.
Haiz... People in anger will make regretful decision. I learn from it.
Suckkk