Last Day of March

It is a really really suck day.
Really cb, ck, wth, kns, lj, suck, hopeless, sad, disappoint, dooms day.
I really really hate two days.
17.07.06 31.03.09
Tis two days. SUCK....

Moody Monday

30/3/09 raining day.

Boring day.

Today i finally know more about LCCI & ACCA ( accounting ). Acc 1a or 2a only can get both cert. Can i made it? I think i can. Both cert are damn useful for my future. I will fight for it. Today hav a meeting for the cls camp. I take the post of juruaudit. Actually i also don know wat is the job for that post. Anywhere i will learn. Most important is organize with convent. Hope there are some good thing happen.

YL, i think i 90% can save the treat of kfc for you. Let wait and see.

Think Out Already

The problem this few day for me is whether i really wan to giv up pb.

I really really tired of those problem in pb.

BUT now i not going to think that question again.

BCOZ of seven of them.

YL, JS, CS, YS, JW, WL and HL.

Bcoz of u seven, i wan to stay for yours victory maybe in jun. I don want to miss out tat moment.

Three years in pb. Two years can get the victory but we miss it.

I don know how u all think, but i really hope u all think like me. I really really willing to give out my time with u all.

NOW not only u seven suffer, i will suffer together with u all.

Although maybe tat is not a victory for me bcoz i not participating, but i happy if u all gat that.

My hope and my wish all on u all.

Hope u all get that victory.

Thanks u all let me think out and not giving up.

After SPM

Mayb is still early for me to think of this question. SPM still haven pass.
But if you ask me wad i want to be in future.
Actually i also don know wad i can be in future.
My wish is to study business administration in australia. Can my dream come true? Still a question mark now.
My english not that good. My account shit. Is that possible for my dream come true?
I told myself to improve but still my laziness win.
Actually i have many ambition when i am small. First is policeman. Later on lawyer. Next is hotel manager. Businessman with no further study. Then i wan to be a social worker. lastly is this. Study business administration.
I now very fan of am i really want to study that in australia. Study in australia is always my dream. But is it a burden for my parents. I am not the only child.
Scholarship!!! Can meh? HAIZ
HOWHOWHOW???
How is my future? Wad will it be? Successly or ...?

At long last

Finally. Finally. Wad a finally!!!
Finally i can rest, sit down and open my com to write this post.
Tis six days including this morning, are really obsolutely tiring days for me.
With all the problems in pb, study and tuition. All is stress for me.

MON- no big thing happen. Tuition for 3 hours after school.

TUES- 3 suck problems. Really headache to beg people. Tuition also for three hours.

WED- Lucky 3 prob yesterday solve. But i end up with sick. Now only i know flu and cough come together are so sing ku. Tuition also at 8.30.

THURS-Praba extra class.Until 2.40.Reach home 3 plus. After eat, go tuition at 4 until 6. Continue another tuition at 7. Back home 9.

FRI- Pb competition taklimat. Not so success. But ans their question until crazy.

TODAY- Meeting. Until now only i can rest.

HAIZ!! All those things. I am really really tired. I really don know how long i can stand for it if i continue with all this things.
Maybe a person who is tired will think more. GIVE UP. This words came out in my mind. I don know why. My mind tell me giv up. My heart tell NO. HOW? Teach me how, please?
I know if i try to pass this year with not giving up, i will get a good experience, but if i giv up, i will be declared one word. IRRESPONSIBLE. I don wan like two of them. HOW?
This words giv up, is really hard to appear in my mind. I put such much effort can be say 1/3 of my time in it. PB am i really wan to giv up u?
Maybe now i really need somebody that can console me, help me, encourage me to tink it out.
but WHO CAN HELP ME???

WOW....

INCREDIBLE TALE.

SHOCK SIA

CANT IMAGINE

UNBELIEVEABLE

IS REAL

WOW WOW WOW WOW WOW

You still remember the girl that carry the same bag with me.

Actually the bag is not hers. She just lend from her friend.

A really coincidence is the guy who is the bag owner is same old with me.

Ai ya this just very normal.

BUT let me cant imagine that he also come out from his mum womb on 23 oct.

Is exactly same with ME. same same whey.

Maybe i too ta jing xiao kuai liao. Maybe u all got this type of coincidence also.

But me. 16+ years only the first time.

I sure want to meet the guy lo.

Happy Night

Tonight having a potluck bbq with my primary school frenz.

Thursday night only i receive the sms that telling today party.

I am considering going or not. But lastly i go. I had skip my add math tuition again.

Anywhere really enjoy tonight party. Tis the second gathering after primary school.

Some of them i meet them last year but some not. 5 years dy, they really change a lot. Super lot.

Don know when still got this type of chance to meet.

Just now we talk back all the happy, sad, angry and how we fight in our primary school.

Really flash back our memory. Now think back really miss that type of life.

Unlike now, so busy with all thing. However, i still enjoy now.

Stop Playing & Testing Me!!!!

HAIZ. Today, after watching dragonball. Nothing to do. Waiting for time pass.
Walk with skl and yl plenty round of cs. Sian tao.
Wad a bad thing is why let me meet her again?
She eating a lolipop and walk pass me.
I looking at her. I know she saw me. But she also just walk pass.
I already forget her 80%. Haiz. But now like decrease liao le.
But i can feel myself have no feel toward her.
She got new boyfriend again. Is she always change?
But why god wan play me? Mayb like he say, god is testing me.
TEST ME FOR WAD?

Today i also saw a stupid guy.

Maybe our thinking not same.

He don wan to admit he and a gal relation.

So hai le. Although kena sai. But why cannot admit? Haiz. Don know how he think.

If me. I will definitely say yes. With no think. Cause if say no. Mean i not agree with that relation.

But when i only got chance to say YES.

Please teach me, YESMAN!!!

Zhu Guang Pao Qi

17 discs, 82 eposide.
One month, finish watching long last.
Full of joy, hating, buisness fighthing, sad and love.
the ratio of joy to sad is 1:3.
haiz. three sister fighting many things. Relation not so good. One of them materialistic, another kind hearted and last one quite pro.
To be sibling is so hard. There are fate. Sometime we will not think like that. Even me, fight with my sister.
Now, i wont. And i found how blessful am i. I don know my future will be how, but i will definitely cherish now and try to continue it to future.
Somemore now i got one more brother.
Affinity, telergy and god's will is all in tis story. Although tis is just a story, but i believe that sometime this all thing will happen in our life.
The ending is not consider good. Very funny. But all of them happy.
The LOVE story in tis is also waooo. A true love will never change although they meet thousand and thousand problem. The feeling will still be there .
BUT sometime we must also giv ourselves time to calm down if something happen.
After calm down only we will more cherish that relationship.
And lastly, love cannot be force. Haiz. I such a failure. Now only know love cannot be force.

First camp in 2009

Xue ji 's camp. 23 hours. RM25.00. SAB. 16 & 17 Mac. Group 6.

Lucky yl, cockroach and me in one group. Wont bored.

Lucky there are two pretty in our group.

Lucky we can same group with them. They two are the prettiest among the peserta. Not ajk ok.

Wao.. I cant imagine they are so high. Also wont lose us.. They from kulai.

23 hours pass fast and slow.

Fast because too little time together with them.

Slow is the camp pass slow.

The game: ok ok. Better than last year. But haiz. haiz. some problem come out to us when play.

The food: 1/2 ok. Three meal same drink. Egg, tao ge, kang kong, rice, biscuits, bread with kaya and milo. EEEEEEEEEEEE.

Cant sleep the whole night. The stupid moisquitoes make yl and me...... No choice. Can only chat.

A fate had happen between yl, me and the two pretty. I really cant iagine that this world is so small and qiao. We four using the same brand of bag. Two same design.

Wao. mayb this is fate pa. People from difference places can meet together, be in a group together, play together, sweat together, frustated together and using the same bag.

Other members also have fate with me. Since we can meet and play together, these are call fate.
Hope there are chance to meet again. This really a memory for me. "I mean the bags".jkjk.

HAPPY HOLIDAY

So fast, the first holiday arrived.
9 days. BUSy days
Only the first day of holiday. Meeting. Damn tiring. Go play basketball.
Shuang. So long din play liao. A frustrated thing happen. I kena fang aeroplane. Suck. Very sian wan lo. Always like that.
Tomorrow rest pa. Monday got camp at sab. Hope it is a nice and memoryful camp. Hope there are more pretty gals.
Thurs, fri, sat. meeting meeting meeting. A little sian lo. But is a memory with frenz. I will cherish it.
Sun. Still no jie mu. Who wan yue wo????
Haiz. This holiday to me not consider a holiday pa. 4 days need go school. But at least no need study. Hahaha.
Don know how are there at the camp belia? Maybe phonebook full liao lo. Haiz. If i can go, how nice oh.

Half way of the WAR

The second days dy. Left few hours holidays. Shuang.
Exam.....
Got little hopeless lo.
Bm, bi, moral, physics i think ok.
But the account. Haiz. I thought i dy well prepared but still disappoint. the stupid a/k modal and wat hutang lapuk. eeeeeeeeeeeee. Hate that.
Today add math. I damn kip sim. Haiz Haiz Haiz. If i got more 15 minutes, i sure can do that question. Haiz i lose to him again. Why the time don go slower a bit?
If if if. I also fa ta liao la.
Tomorrow math, est, chemi and stupid pjk.
Hope go smoothly with no disappoint.
All the best for all of you. Last day dy. Holiday liao. GOOD LUCK.
Hehe today a good news for me. I no need to take stupid est liao. Shuang. Hezrin sure want pek pek pek liao.
And jia you for the 8 people who going for the camp belia. Let u all go feel the embarassing from steven. haha.

First Time In My LIFE

In this 16++ years, i had never had this experience before.
An experience that don know what myself thinking about, blaming for what, moodless for what.
My mind is completely empty. But i lie on my bed, facing the wall for the whole night without thinking anything.
I also don know why i like this. Actually to others is really nothing, but i still don know why???
I still cant get my answer that i want. I can only find an excuse for myself in order to let me get up and study. If not i cant sit here to study. I very sure i will think about that if i din find an excuse.
Anywhere i wont think that again, if not a worst thing will happen.
Thanks wl. You help me again. Thanks much and much.

The third post for tonight

I don know why i wan think so much.
My heart really ....I also don know how to say.
Maybe is the message let me so sad...
I also don know wat i think.
Very moodless. Tonight maybe is the second sad night for this few years. Haiz.
I really cant stop to think. How?How?
HAiz. I will NEVER EVER care that type of things ANYMORE.......
WHY I SO BUSYBODY????????? I will never forget today. A day which how stupid and busybody i am!!!
Heart is crying, brain is empty, mood is black.
HAIZ.....

SAD^^

Actually they two ok liao i should be happy.
But just now only i know. WHy i so busybody?
Haiz. I will never to care other dy next time. Suan liao.
But i really not understand. Why he say that to me?
You think i happy see you all like that, to say all that to you ah?
WAste time , waste money, waste energy.
I will never ever care again anymore..
Today is really a .........day.

BAD DAY..Why i so busybody? I hate myself...

Today is a really really bad day for me.
Two of my close person had some misunderstanding. Haiz. Why the basketball club want to have that competition. If not nothing will happen.
Haiz. Why i wan so busybody? I really not suitable to be a peace maker.
Trouble maker is more suitable for me lo.
Friend please. Eye don be red some more because of this ok. I know i really ye pang ye mang.
A small thing like this had let me do until become more worse.
Bro. Forgive it can. You two my close. Let me beg you. Don like that ok. I felt i really guilty.
If i wont this busybody, all wont become worse.
Please la. Just this time.
Haiz. GOD. please help them.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA....... Why everyday got thing happen want. Why?Why?Why?
Frenz forgive me to worse that thing.
Bro, can you decrease my guilty? PLEASE!!!!!!

BUZY Day...

Today morning happy that rosli din come but sad that praba relief. Sian. However, today i very enjoy do account. Ye zhuo ye shuang. But need to see his face for 4 periods.
After that taklimat start. So damn busy. Run here run there.
Lucky that everthing going smooth. Maybe 80% perfect. 50 for the taklimat and 30 for demo.
Not so perfect. But i know that they all already do their best. Anywhere thank you them for doing the demo.
You all will do better for next time.

Haiz. Exam coming. Three days off. But actually want to stay at home to study but tomorrow still need to go to school. Cause of the bladdy piala. Sian. Anywhere i will still study.

Crazy Day....

Today a stupid mesyuarat agung for koperasi held.
Actually i going to play truant but lastly no.
I think today is the craziest day in this few months.
Maybe some will think us very "kurang ajar" i felt that we really enjoy it.
The function we had disturb the teacher.
We keep making stupid noise until teacher also cant do wat to us. So HIGH.
Until now my voice become sa sa.
So nice damn nice extremely nice.
300 days more i definetely no tis type of syok. This i think will be a good memory of my secondary schoolhood.
Guys please don follow us. Be a good student.
Tomorrow is taklimat. Hope all going smoothly.
All the best to demo teamS and myself too.
gambateh....

Enemy Coming...

Next tuesday start. Going to fight with enemy. I think mostly will have same think like me. Hate exam.
Although is a small test but still very sian. People like me who seldom take out book and read is more sian.
I always ask. Why tis world got tis such thing? Until now i still cant find my answer. Can u answer me??
Until now i din even take out a book to read. Maybe i always think tis type of test just use my memory wat teacher had teach.
BUT now, i not going to be like tis. I must force myself to open the book.
Maybe not for my own good. But is to WIN. Maybe my thinking is wrong for you. But i think i only can use tis way in order to open the book.
Well. Hope all of you can win your enemy(get good result in test). Add oil. All the best for you all.
Before i end, I wish all the best to the people who going to pi sai on this saturday. I will not be there. Too lan liao. But anywhere jia you.
I warning you to be careful. I don want to see you like the person in january, stress and emo......

December,2008

I went for a camp in melaka. Actually i regret it.
Cause at first i thought is a traveling trip. Then i quite happy to go. BUT few day before going, i found that it is a church camp. Suck. Money pay dy. Cannot reject. No choice hav to go. Go with wl and skl.

But after i go, my mind totally change. Not regret at all. Not say very interestiing la. Games, activity all ok ok only la. BUT their "jiang shi" really damn geng. Made me change. What they say really really touch into my deepest heart. All they say can say is 95% correct to me. I wonder how they so pro. Maybe of their experience pa. After heard their talk i really not regret to pay this 120 buck. And this camp had made me fan one thing that time. That is christian. Actually i a buddhist before that. But i hav never ever had that type of "ajaran". I confuse for quite a long time but lastly, finally i made a desicion. Not going to change anything. Means i still a buddhist.But i will still go to church. Cause i can learn more...
Just come back from this camp. Rest for one day, another stupid camp need to go. A suddenly decision. A pb camp. Actually is three people go. But the ............ person suddenly fang aeroplane.
Really hate that.. If not got that type of people, I wont be black. Although i quite white, but you know how suffering or not. Sian. Anywhere all thing pass. Just my skin haven pass. Still got little brown.
I have quit my job on 28.12.08. Wat a good decision. I really happy. I really spent the day with no job with my frenz every day. 29. at home. actually wan go out. but people fang fei ji again. Sian. 30 form 3 get result, i went red box. 31 countdown party.Syok. 1 stay home, 2 sing again and rape yl, 3 go hq, 4 go wl church, 5 dead day arrive. How wonderful this few day are!! I now think back. Really a memory. Nice memory

Again A Week Pass, Another Bored Sunday

The time pass so fast. First test is coming. How? SPM261 days liao. Slowly at the corner liao. Sian ah. Later pi ye le. Old dy. Haiz. This week also a busy week. Tuition, competition, pb meeting, training. All come and go fast. 04.04.09 just few day more. The competition will success or fail also don know. All i know is, problems are pop out. All crap came out. This and That. I also don know how to handle it. Haiz.
SUNDAY--- to me is a waste, bored, meaningless day. Nothing to do. Go out, waste money. Bankrupt liao lo. Don know why this year all force me buy present for them. But actually i already intend to buy something for them but now lack of money. 07.03.09 coming. Present still haven buy. Also don know what to buy. Who can give me some idea??
Today no drama to watch. My mum lo, don know go lent who liao. Cause me lagi sian. But nevermind, let me finish my homework. Oral, chemi, add math, math all finish already. Become more qing song. Next week still don know how busy will i be? Hope not so. But meeting, tuition, koko, taklimat, practice. How can i not busy? God, help me. I already long time din sleep more than 7 hours . Just today can sleep more. Don know which day some more can sleep like that. Haiz.Haiz.Haiz.