That's it

tt's it.. i decided..
i decided to giv up.
yesternite..
whole nite cant sleep.
keep on tinking,
frankly, i don knw wat i tink also..
decide tt..
first time ever..
while typing.. some tears start to drop.
is ok..
idk why i do tt also.
mayb just wan b4 tt i will hate..
from love become hate,,
i scare..
determination..
u tink i don hav..
i hav.. mayb finished dy..
even wat i do.. struggle till the end..
the result will still the same..
then why don sad for now..
is beta than later.
is better for both ..
mayb tis time i really get hurt deeply..
bt.not anyone fault..
is myself..
me myself who cause like tt..
idk how to put down act.
is dy engrave in my heart..
but no choice..
i must be cruel to myself. b4 hurted more.
mayb tis my destiny..
my life.
mayb i belong to loner.
heart from empty to without.
tis my destiny..
i hav no choice but to accept it..
everytime i step out.. drop at the end.
tis time..
totally.. i don when only i will step out again..
i scare.. i really scare.. i don dare anymore..
i keep on ask myself why why why..
bt no ans at all.
so sry..
friend also cant be anymore.
nt ur fault.
is mine..
i don wan.. i scare i will fell in deeper and deeper.
i cant.
i scare.
wat i can do now..
is don tink
bt can i?
pls be more cruel.
delete everything now.
i don wan face anymore.
avoid is the best solution.
how much i wish tt time can turn back to 12 jun..
then ntg will happen.
bt too bad.. is impossible.
today at skul.
haiz.. my face looked.....
mayb those smile is just an act.
i wan real smile..
i must..
tt's all..
everyone.don ask y pls.. i don wish to say anymore. tq.
LoNeR without heart anymore............
is belong to my own world.