HAte myself

really don knw why, wat i am tinking..
really don wish like tt..
i hate myself man...
i don knw wat i am tinking..
is so absent minded..
feel like so tired...
heart tired...
i don knw wat i can do also..
i wan to start study today..
but i cant... i cant concentrate...
watching tv, playing comp..
still the same.. absent minded..
i don wan like tis pls..
i don wan...
the tiredness is from the heart...
i don knw why,...
why why why..
pls.. i don wan...
i tried and tried to get myself concentrate to study...
but i cant..
i hav no more time..
i hav to study start from now..
but how...
how how how...
wasted one day again....
I HATE MYSELF being like tis...