Second day

well.. today working life start... no other word.. tired..
stand for so long.. tired betul..very sleepy also...
after tt went for steamboat just now.. ok.. nice... enjoying.. pity de ice-cream.. kept on let us sai into our stomach.. poor thing..
i got my liscense today in the morning liao..
just now i drove back.. my dad beside.. haiz.. sian.. performance is too bad..
no car use on monday liao..
anyway... as my friend said.. they need time to hav confidence on me too.. i need time too.. i really useless and hopeless .. so dumb,.. really hav to learn somemore.. ok.. i wont be so impatient anymore.. i will wait.. wait till they hav confidence on me and i really can let them don worry.. i hav to.. be patient please ler.. your road is still long way.. patient.. patient...
ok.. no more...

don knw why today again.. don knw wat i am tinking again..
the whole day keep listening to all those thing..
haiz.. i really don knw wat to ans le..
kena scold terrible..
haiz.. cant i do so much meh.. is it a waste..
wat u all said is true meh.. idk..
but i still believe myself..
nothing to say.. nothing to ans.. u wont knw wat i feel, wat i tink..
no reason for doing all tis actually..
but i don knw am i wrong..
i really don knw wat to do..
seeing someone suffering but i cant do anything..
mayb just a little step out from me may change everything..
u tink i don wan.. but i hav to wait.. time .. i need time..
i am really useless..
make people suffering..
just can say. sorry..
but i knw one sorry cant do anything..
all is my fault..
arhhhhhhhhh...
yet i am tired.. tink a lot again..
but don knw wat i am tinking..
please la.. i don wan people keep saying me.. i hav to wake myself up..
if not my ear and heart and mouth don knw will do wat tink wat again..
haiz.. sorry once again for being so terrible.. anyway.. lets god decide wat god wan me to do. wan do to me..
i hav no choice but to accept it..
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2moro gonna wake up super early to go do passport. if not no time liao..
6.30... super early can...
take care pa everyone