Heart

Is it finding a true love is so hard..
Is it so hard to get touch a person who u love her..
Is it so hard to win a person and love her with watever u can??
Y there are so many obtascles... tt i had meet..
A feeling tt never had b4 tis goin to be 17 years i had been live for..
A power tt never felt b4..
A power tt pushing me to fight for it..
Do i regret for being so brave again?? frankly.. sometime i felt so..
Everything felt like change from b4 and now.. Don knw how to explain.. just changed...
Am i really such failure tt cant giv security for others.
I had found wat i wan.. wat i wish to.
when i wake up everyday and saw the pic of urs in my phone from ur message..
chat anything and everything for the whole day so my life will be more meaningful.not dull...
share happiness, sadness, stress, enjoyment.. everything and anything..
protect her..
care her..
dote her..
love her..
when she sad.. help her to cheer up.. when she happy.. happy together with her..
when she nid help.. the first one to stand to help her..
listen to her encouragement, advices..
be her guardian angel all the way..
just wan her be the most happy person in the world..
...
i finally felt wat someone said..
when u saw he person who u love stress up or so moody..
me myself will always affected.. by the way hep her destress...
sometime felt so useless cause cant even help her..
wat i can do is giving moral support..
But does tis enough??
acc her while she study..
let her scold while she angry..
joke with her to be more happy..
other from tis, i don knw wat i tis useless guy can do...
everythong and anything i will try in order to let her hav a happier life.
..
mayb when u meet someone tt u really love..
tt person had really gone into urs deepest heart ...
is exactly who am i now..
had dy become part of my life.. even treat as my own life..
cant imagine tt tis life gone away..
just wish i can grab it and keep it forever...
her smile, her laugh, her staring eyes, her talking style, her craziness, her unsual style are in my mind always..
every morning when wake up.. the first thing came into my mind is all those..
the only things tt let me have tt energy to go on with my life..
acc me pass all those tough life, meaningless life.
with ur existance, my life become colourful and meaningful..
...
my heart is so easy being occupied...
but when is really occupied with her, did not even move a little..
although sometime felt like giving up..
but i knw is worth to wait whoever i love, i wish to spend my life with her..
the harder to get now.. will be more cherish later..
i hav never felt tt type of being love de feel..
really envy some people they hav it..
but loving a person is also a happiness.
sometime work, when saw those people who buying couple ring, couple necklace..
i ask myself.. when only i can buy tt..
today.. i saw a scene.. my tear is really going to drop little..
i saw a customer buying couple ring for his gf and help her wear on...
the gal look so embarass but her smile.. really let me felt hapiness on her.
don knw why suddenly so kan tong shen cu..
is it so hard to find a person who i love her, she love me..
i tink i found..
but.. haiz
mayb there wil be a miracle one day,,
mayb now i am just useless and cant giv happiness to her..
mayb she cant feel the security from me..
but.. isn't it should be a chance..
the chance for me to protect her..
other than my family, the person i wish to protect is ....
hope i can get the chance..
i will cherish anything tt given by tt chance..
let me prove tt is possible everything from me..
let me hav tt chance to go on with life together wit u...
i will wait for tt miracle..
ashite imasu
tis are all from my deepest heart^^

tis is my first post tt wrote for u..

mayb some may tink tt i am like playboy or wat.

but frankly.. ur existance dy told me tt is lucky with the rejectment few month ago..

i really wish u can acc me for my life..

no matter how, i will wait and touch u..

hope to get ur ans soon also..^^

ashite imasu